Welcome to Hogwarts!

It seems that the more I put on my plate the more organized I have become. I have also found out that nothing good can be accomplished from my apartment. I need to detach myself from the distracting environment to get anything done. With that said, I am pretty proud of myself in terms of getting things done. It is safe to say that I have been pretty productive lately. I am trying to speed my metabolism up, work out more, get more sleep, take care of my body, attend every class, and stay on top of my homework. For the most part I am doing pretty well in ALL aspects of this. I will admit that sometimes I get a little wayward when I am at the apartment, but the general stigma of school this semester has completely changed compared to the fall semester. 

I am still emotionally struggling with a lot of things in my life, and it is things that I am convinced will follow me around for a long time, but I am learning how to deal and how to cope. I am the only one who can create my happiness. If I get discouraged or anxious I need to find a way to make myself happy. No one is going to do it for me. These words and epiphany’s that I type on this blog inspire me more than anything to stick to my convictions.

The only thing I wish I was doing better on was my relationship with God. It is something I will always struggle with, and honestly I feel like is a lot harder for me than for some people, but God is something I NEED in my life so I am determined to try my hardest to strengthen that relationship as much as I can. God has blessed me in more ways than anyone can ever imagine. He also loves me despite the complete monster that I used to be, he loved me through it and he still loves me now. How can that not convince you that you have a loving God?! How can people still question him when they know that? I have literally felt the presence of God in my heart twice in my entire life, and those two moments changed me. I constantly yearn to feel that closeness to God again. Those memories are what make me believe more than anything else that God has my life planned out. He knows where I need to end up in life. I am going to try my hardest to succeed in whatever I do because I want be able to look back at the events in my life and know that the short commings that occured were not because I was lazy, or unmotivated, but that God had another idea in mind for my life. I could never ask anything more than that. How great is our God!

To say the least I’m definitely feeling thankful for the cards I have been dealt and I’m trying to play the best hand I can.

Chey